I found my first Amanita mushroom while living in Alaska. After growing up in cracker dry Arizona my entire life, spotting mushy multicolored fungi in the yard was exciting. They were so alien yet so intriguing, especially Amanita. She was the largest and most beautiful mushroom I had ever seen! Bright red with vibrant white spots, I couldn’t help but spot her everywhere. 

But I didn't try consuming Amanita until 5 years later, in 2021.

By then I was living in Washington. I had lost my job, was severely depressed due to lack of purpose and being rejected by hundreds of jobs. The hole of depression that I had fallen into for 5 years was deeper than I’d ever imagined. Something had to change.

And for some reason that mushroom I had seen 5 years earlier called me back, to give her another look. And so I took to the internet, reading anything I could about this mushroom online. What I found was that when people prepared Amanita into a tea and drank it, she gave people happiness and helped heal past traumas. And so I decided then and there that by Fall I was going to collect my own mushrooms and give life another shot.

After two months of microdosing daily, I found my stregth again. The terrible thoughts I had had about myself were no where to be found. In their place was happiness, optimism and a sense of peace. I had tried SSRI's, hiking in nature, and even microdosing traditional psychedelic mushrooms, but they did not give me a long term solution like Amanita did. Amanita gave me the clarity to see the path I am meant to walk along with the bravery to walk it, but most importantly, I am now able to become the person I want to be in life; to manifest the gifts I want to give to the world. For that I am eternally grateful.

And so here I am. Selling these same mushrooms online. Because I know I can’t be the only one who wants another option. And if I can help more people access this magical mushroom more easily, then this gamble was worth it. 

Happy Adventuring, 

Love Tara <3